Thank you... I love you.

Thank you… I love you.

Hello Yuu-kun,

It has been a while hasn’t it? You must be wondering “Why a letter from her now of all times?”… Well, you’ll figure it out in a bit! I told auntie and uncle to give you this letter once you’ll come back home… If not, then you’ll probably never be reading this… I wonder how many years it’d take before you get to read this… One? Two? Probably even more…

But since you are reading it right now, it means you came back like I thought you would right? I believed that you would come back, I wouldn’t be writting this letter right now if I thought otherwise, we’re childhood friends afterall!

I would like to say, first and foremost : Welcome home… Yuu-kun.

I would have loved to be able to welcome you home with a huge smile, but I can’t, so you’ll have to make do with this letter! You always wanted to study overseas, I hope it was fruitful!

I digress too much… I… It’s just too hard for me to write what I really want to write… The things that I couldn’t tell you in person… But I have to, since by the time you’ll be reading this, I won’t be able to tell you…

I… Would like to thank you for putting with me and staying by my side… Especially with such a troublesome person like me… Even though you said that it didn’t bother one bit and that you were happy to be able to take care of me… I caused you so many griefs and worries with this weak and frail body of mine… But… Thank you so much…

I still cherish and remember clearly every memories that we made since we were little… I still remember, when we were six, you threw yourself into a pond to retrieve my four-leaf clover that the wind blew away from my hand. It was really unnecessary of you and you even got scolded by your parents because of it… But it made me really happy.

When we were twelve, when I got sick, you’d always come over my house to look after me so I would get better as soon as possible and so I wouldn’t feel lonely.

At sixteen, we went on our first date… Well, it was just us going shopping for a gift for my parents’ anniversary, but… I enjoyed it like it was a date… It made me really happy when you took my hand and ran away from the jerks that tried to flirt with me.

At seventeen, when my parents died… When I couldn’t even smile anymore, when I felt like I lost everything and when I felt like joining them, you scolded me, held me in your arms and told me that I didn’t lose everything, that I still had you… That we were a family, even with only the two of us… You know? It felt like a proposal… I cried a lot but I also managed to smile once more thanks to you… It was the first time I cried so much in front of someone else… I’m glad that it was you. Since that day, we started dating.

Soon after I turned eighteen… My body grew weaker and I had to stay at the hospital, it made you worry of course and just like back when we were kids, you’d spend every possible moment visiting me. Thanks to you, I didn’t feel one bit lonely and I was looking forward to that moment when you’d walk through the door, greet me with a smile and ask me if I was doing better.

And then, visiting hours wasn’t enough for you, so you actually found a way to make yourself really sick and get the permission to stay in the same room as me… You’re the biggest idiot that I’ve ever known, who’d ever think of doing something like that?! I don’t need to yell at you again don’t I? Nonetheless, you brought me so much joy and my nights were less boring with you right besides me. For three long yet short years, you’ve spent every possible moment by my side…

I remember everything, the sad and happy memories, the warm and painful moments, the fights that we had, the laughs that we shared… Every single one of them are my most precious treasures… Even the little things that most people thought were insignificant…

I don’t want to leave you… I want to get married and have children with you… I want to grow old with you… Old enough to see our children grow and get married… I want to share more laughs and smiles with you… I want us to bicker and tease each other a lot more longer… I want to be with you for so much more longer… But I can’t…

But… I don’t regret anything… You gave me so many wonderful memories and happiness that could last for a lifetime.

I am thankful to have met you.
Thank you for giving me so many wonderul memories.
Thank you for all the laughters, warmth and smiles.
Thank you for staying right beside me.
Thank you for taking care of me.
Thank you for loving me.
But more importantly… Thank you for letting me be your little Chi-chan…

I really hope that, when it’ll be time for me to leave… Even though, you’ll definitely be crying, that you’d be able to send me off with a smile… I really hope that you’d let me see that smile that had chased away my sorrow countless of times one last time…

Even though I won’t be able to reach you anymore… I’ll always watch over you… I’ll always stay by your side… Like you’ve always did for me…

Please, promise me that you’ll cherish everyday that you’ll spend and keep on smiling, like when you spent them with me… Make me proud and happy.

I’ll miss you dearly and I’ll never forget you, no matter where I’ll end up…

Farewell, I love you,
Your Chi-chan