Letter of a Collapsing Man

Posted: 28th April 2013 by desfel in Uncategorized
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This entry is part 4 of 6 in the series Deadmen Letters
I want to cry, I want to scream my lungs out

I want to cry, I want to scream my lungs out

Thrown around and about, treated like nothing more than a thing that needs to be shaped
Pressured by expectations and ideals that I don’t even care about
That I don’t even want to have anything to do with
That I can’t even control with my own hands
I’m getting tired of this…

Always expected to accomplish unreachable and unknown goals
And then blow up the bubble that held me safe
Always telling me lies to cushion my falls
And then expect me to believe a single word, to filter truth from lies, lies from truth…
I’m getting tired of this…

Always blamed for every little small details
Always getting yelled at for small faults
Barely getting any praise for accomplishments
My hopes and peace is always getting robbed away
I’m getting tired of this…

I can’t even expect for them to be proud of my choices
Things that I want to do can’t ever please them
Things that I don’t want to would make them happy
My choices are never the right ones
I’m… getting really tired of this…

The thin line is about to snap
The very thin line is about to snap…
The bad outweighs the good
I want to cry, I want to scream my lungs out
I want to run, I want to leave everything behind
I want to hide, I want disappear…
But I can’t… Shackled down by pain and suffering
I just can’t fight it back…

I thought I was happy, but sadness and pain keep overwhelming me…
And I just end up forcing a smile… A smile that hurts too much…
And I just might end up… Breaking…
I’m getting really tired… Of everything…

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