Thank you…
Yearning to be seen as more than a tool
Longing to freed from being used
I have finally unchained myself from those who can’t see me for nothing more than an object
That… is what I thought…
Have I known to not misplace my trust
Have I known to not misplace my beliefs
Have I known to not misplace my expectations
Have I known to not bite for their lies…
Those who have called themselves my comrade
Those who have called themselves my pillars
Have been chipping away at their own words
And replaced the solid hard love by feeble weak lies
The pillars are crumbling down…
Just like a weakening fire on a candle…
One by one… They are being put out…
Becoming shorter as they are lit up again
Until no more remains…
I have given away way too much
Time, effort, happiness, smiles, laughters…
Only to be paid back with nothing than
Pain, sorrow, sadness, betrayal, loneliness…
Whenever those pillar would crumble
And be built back up again…
I would feel happiness and joy
But little have I known that those pillar were becoming more and more feeble and ephemeral
Just like my soul… Just like my existence…
To the eyes of those who looked away from me…
To the eyes of those who content themselves with their own joy…
To the eyes of those who kept walking forward without a moment to spare…
Ephemeral… Just like my happiness
Just like my hopes and trusts
That keeps being crushed and swept away
Like meaningless dusts flowing in the wind
Never amounting to anywhere meaningful…
Tears that are meant to overflow the cup that is holding them
Tears that could never spill over
Tears that couldn’t shed
By a soul that merely flickers weakly
By a soul that is about to fade away…
All that I can say is…
“Why have I not come to terms that I’m alone?”
A fact that I should have engraved into my soul since so long ago
All I can add is…
To the one who’ll be able to fully reach out to me
To the one who’ll be able to see me entirely
…
End this… Me…
Thank you… For saving me…
