946103735_03d50ee4e80de6b382663d703eee063ecf3a03a9_122_54lo

« Attention!! » Cria le jeune homme en se précipitant vers une jeune femme qui se faisait attaquée par un monstre. D’in coup vif et rapide, il fendit son adversaire en deux avec son épée. Après avoir remis son arme dans son fourreau, il s’approcha de la victime et lui tendit la main pour l’aider à se relever.

« Ceci marquait l’évènement de notre première rencontre… Depuis ce jour, on a voyagé à travers le monde ensemble, partageant rire et larmes. » Dit un homme alité à la femme assise à côté de lui. « Chaque jour était unique à ses côtés… Je me rappelle de chacun de ces jours comme si ça datait d’hier… » raconta l’homme alors que la femme l’écoutait attentivement. « Elle était vraiment maladroite et se mettait très souvent en danger et à chaque fois, j’étais là pour l’aider à se relever. Quant-à-moi, je ne sais combien de fois que sa gentillesse, son amour et ses sourires m’ont sauvé la vie… Elle était toujours là pour me remettre sur le droit chemin… »

« Tu dois l’avoir beaucoup aimé cette jeune femme. » Dit tout doucement la femme qui s’occupait de lui.

« Je l’ai aimé et je l’aime toujours. » Affirma et ajouta l’homme. «Je me rappelle encore très bien de la promesse que je lui ai faite. Je lui ai promis que je viendrai à sa rescousse, peu importe la situation dans laquelle elle se retrouvera. Les larmes de joies et les sourires que son visage esquissait à chaque fois que je tenais ma promesse… Furent et seront toujours mes plus grands trésors… »

« Elle était chanceuse cette femme pour avoir un chevalier aussi vaillant que toi. » La femme murmura avec un petit sourire forcé, dissimulant très mal sa souffrance d’entendre l’histoire du passé de l’homme.

« J’ai été chanceux de l’avoir rencontré… Après notre  périple à traverser de merveilleux pays et les montagnes les plus dangereuses, à voir plusieurs beaux paysages, à affronter les monstres les plus féroces ensemble et à vivre des moments magiques et extraordinaire… J’ai finalement eu le courage de lui demander de partager sa vie avec la mienne. Je n’ai pu retenir mes larmes quand je l’ai vu esquisser le plus beau sourire qu’elle ne m’ait jamais montré… »

L’homme lâcha une toux et sa compagne, inquiète, sauta sur lui pour l’aider à se remettre. « Mais voilà 10 ans qu’elle a disparu… Après cet incident qui m’a enlevé mon plus grand trésor… 10 ans que j’ai parcouru le monde à essayer de la retrouver… »

L’homme toussa à nouveau, mais beaucoup plus violemment. « Ah… La fin approche… Si seulement je pouvais la voir une dernière fois, son sourire, sa voix, sa gentillesse… Elle me manque tellement… » Dit-il d’une voix faible. La jeune femme, attristée par son état, garda le silence alors que les larmes coulèrent doucement sur ses joues blanches comme la neige, ne sachant pas quoi dire.

« Je n’aurais pas pu tenir aussi longtemps si tu n’étais pas apparu dans ma vie après que j’aie perdu ma femme… Je te remercie infiniment… » Dit-il alors qu’il leva sa main très lentement.

La femme prit sa main tout doucement. « Ah… C’est comme si c’était elle qui tient ma main en ce moment… Si… un jour, tu arrivais à retrouver ma femme, dis-lui que je l’aime plus que tout et que je chéris chaque jour que l’on a passé ensemble… Sans oublié un seul moment… »

La femme perdit la force et la main de l’homme tomba sur lit. L’homme cessa de respirer. La femme s’approcha du visage de celui-ci et une larme tomba sur sa joue. Elle embrassa le front de l’homme et murmura « Je t’aime aussi… » Lâcha-t-elle avec beaucoup de mal. « Merci de m’avoir rappelé de si beaux souvenirs… Merci de m’avoir rendu si heureuse… Merci… Je t’aime… Je t’aime… » Répétait-elle sans cesse alors qu’elle fondit en larmes…

 

Letter of a Pained Man

Posted: 12th May 2013 by desfel in Uncategorized
Tags: , , , ,
This entry is part 6 of 6 in the series Deadmen Letters
As long as my heart keeps on beating... I'll keep on running So my feelings would reach you...

As long as my heart keeps on beating… I’ll keep on running
So my feelings would reach you…

Heart’s beating fast, skpping beats
Warm feelings that I thought lost
Reappearing once more, reviving my hopeful self
But… Just like light cannot go without darkness…
Hurtful feelings that I thought lost
Reappearing once more, killing my hopeful self

Oh how it’d be great if everything could make me reach my goal
Reach it without any obstacles and suffering
But this is reality, things cannot go that well
Thus, I’ve found myself getting my legs and arms constantly cut off
Things preventing me from reaching my destination
Things preventing me from reaching you…

Yet… I keep on going, I keep on running
Running towards the finish line, towards you
Everytime I’d lose a limb or two, I’d find a way to recover it
And keep on pushing… So that I can make my feelings reach you
No matter how many times I’d fall down, I’d get back up and run forward

Yet… Everytime I get closer to you… You’d get further and further away
Times where I thought I could finally stop and hold you in my arms
You’d get further and further away, out of my arms’ reach
Not wanting to give you up, I’d keep on running and running
Constantly falling down and getting back up…

With so many things getting in my way
With so many things hurting me
With so many things preventing me from reaching you
This is an unbalanced and one-sided race…
How long do I have to run before I can reach you?
How much more do I have to fall before I hold you?

These legs and arms that have been constantly torn apart and rebuilt
Have yet to amount to the same pain that my heart have beared and is bearing
A pain that is so unbearable… A pain that can only be suppressed
By my strong feelings for you…
No matter how many things have gotten in my way, I have yet to give up
As long as my heart keeps on beating… I’ll keep on running
So my feelings would reach you…

Lacrimosa ~Prelude~

Posted: 9th May 2013 by desfel in Uncategorized
Tags: , , , ,
"Say... Lissa... Am I to die here? At this world's end?"

“Say… Lissa… Am I to die here? At this world’s end?”

“Behold humans!! He, who is the one whom you all call strongest, is being held captive by
us!!”

Those were the words that I barely managed to understand as I slowly wake up from my comatose
state… As my field of vision starts getting less and less blury, I can now perceive every
little detail that I need to know where I stand… Or should I say where I am chained…

No surprise, as to what has happened, the world is now in ruins, at the very least, what this
place, where I’m held as their object of humiliation, looks like. Unrooted trees buried in dead
leaves and scattered everywhere, debris of destroyed stones, roads and paths have also been
scattered… Beyond the cliff, you could see the ocean and you can easily tell that this place
has been isolated, like a floating island of sorts.

As I slowly gathered my thoughts, I now know that I have been chained onto a cross like board
made of sturdy metal. In my current state, I could easily break off and take care of these
weak minions that are my enemies. But… I’ve come this far and I don’t want to ruin
everything, for the sake of revenge…

Foul demon-like creatures are wavering and shouting, humiliating the human race, instilling
fear into them by showing that they have managed to capture and make the strongest warrior
their captive, that is me.

“No one can rival your so called hero! No one can save you now! Surrender yourselves and
become slaves to Lord Meldios!!”

I shook after that name… Meldios… Meldios… The one that I’m after… Hatred and anger
started taking control over me, but I have to hold still, until the moment is right… I can’t
let myself get engulfed by my darkness.

Right behind me are set of stairs, built by the debris of this ruined isolated island and on
top of that stood Meldios, even though I can’t turn to see him, I can feel his cold and
lifeless stare on me.

As I let out a snicker, I suddenly feel the weight that was holding both of my arms and feet
onto the metal board let loose, I fell off the board.

“Huh?! What’s going on?!” screamed the minions, confused by my sudden release.

One by one, they started appearing right besides me. My companions… Why are they even here?
I thought I told to leave me alone…

One of them turns their head towards me and asked me if I was alright.

“Heh… Of course I’m alright.” I replied with a cold tone.

I slowly equipped myself with my equipments that are being handed to me by each one of my
companion. After I was done, I coudn’t help but turn myself towards Meldios, my sworn enemy,
and stare at him. As anger and thirst for revenge are starting to take over me, I could not
hear one single word that was directed towards me, whether it be from my comrades or my
enemies.

I could only see the stairs that would lead to the drink that would quench my thirst. That is
the blood of their Lord Meldios, the blood of the one who killed the one who I love most in
this world.

As I slowly started climbing the stairs towards him, his strongest servants lunged towards me
one by one and each one of them would be fended off by my comrades, isolated into a one on one
battle.

Not paying any attention to anything that’s happening, I slowly kept climbing the stairs.

Anyone would have been able to hear the clashing sounds emitted by the weapons. Anyone would
have been to smell the odor of blood that’s flying around. But I couldn’t. My mind was filled
with hatred and the need to end my nemesis’ life.

As I climbed up the stairs and being midway through it, I started to increase my pace. As his
face drew closer and seeing standing up and preparing to slowly come towards me, I am reminded
of all the evil deed that he has done.

As we get closer and closer, we started running towards each other, unsheathing our blades and
what could be heard next was a huge sound of metal clashing.

As we exchanged blows, left and right, up and down, towards the chest, towards any limbs…
He… Who has not even shown any emotion in any single battle he has been through is grinning.
I… Who does not enjoy the thrill of battle and avoid confrontation at any cost… am also
grinning…

As we keep on exchanging blows, I remembered how this foul man would fell down all of his
enemies without any single remorse, nor does he show any kind of pleasure when he would crush
them… He had never shown any kind of satisfaction nor amusement when it came to destroy an
entire village or town… He’d always have that empty stare whenever he’d kill someone. Even when he struck down my beloved… Almost as if he committed his evil deeds to find something to make him feel more… Alive…

At that moment… I thought… That it would have been so much easier for me to strike him down if he was a lunatic killer… It feels like I’m fighting a lifeless doll who’s only purpose in life is to kill…

Then, I realize that I too… My anger that was overwhelming me just a few moments ago have been quelled… Probably because I unconsciously find it meaningless to feel anything towards someone who cannot feel anything… I am now fighting my sworn enemy without any kind of emotion, but still my body is moving on it’s own with one single aim, to cleave this dastard in two…

Maybe… Just maybe… Both of us are the same… I… Am not the same as him! I have loved, I
have been happy, I have companions, I have things to protect!

Meldios, seeing that I was in a state of distraught brought by my inner conflict, found the
opening to strike me.

Feeling like everything has been slowed down, I see the point of his blade getting closer to
my eye. If I don’t avoid that, my head would be skewered by it… I should avoid, yet, I have
a hard time commanding my body to…

As it slowsly approaches, your face suddenly appeared in my mind… My beloved Lissa… You,
who have saved me from darkness…

If it wasn’t for you… I would have been wandering around this deteriorating world alone and
would have ended up consumed by the darkness inside me… You have shown me warmth and love,
things that I thought lost…

Emotions that were sealed away, ideals that were discarded, promises that were buried… You
made me pick everything up once more…

You, who have rekindled my dying heart… Who have been taken away by this man before me…
How I wish to hold you once more…

As memories of her started flashing through my mind, I couldn’t help but feel sadness and
regrets…

“Say… Lissa… Am I to die here? At this world’s end?”

You… Who have rekindled my soul… Wait for me, I’ll join you soon…
As my mind faded into those thoughts, I could feel the warm blood flowing down my cheek.